Dear Diary

I got into a fight with Ron today

I didn’t want to argue with him but I was really having a crappy day

I couldn’t control my anger much today and I tried as hard as I can to control it so that I don’t lash out at him

Today he told me that he’s going back to Kajang to talk with his friend and will come back tommorow

I really don’t know how to feel right now

I’m trying to be calm everyday and I tried to be happy in front of him everytime
But I’m losing my strength in front of him
I want to be strong for him, to be his rock also

But the way he talk to me I just can’t…

He just assumes that I have to understand him and that’s that

When I talked to him about getting another tattoo last time
He said its not my decision to do that
What does he mean by that?
Is he trying to control me?

I don’t know
I just feel so insecure all the time with him and I don’t know how to tell him

I love him with all my life and I want to spend my whole life with him
But if its going to be his opinion is always bigger than my opinion then I don’t know

What am I going to do?

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